this morning, i woke up at 7.30 so i could get to a school downtown at 9.30 to give three back-to-back sessions to the most adorable 3-year-olds on the planet. i had to lug an actual suitcase + a backpack + an additional plastic bag full of toys and materials with me the whole way, and then book it back to school to squeeze in a quick lunch and ( Read more... )

so much to be grateful for this week that i don't want to lose amidst the pains of having to be on call 24/7 to play nursemaid:

• the surgery went well
  
• the recovery process seems to be going as best as can be expected
  
• i got to be here for the surgery
  
• the doctor is from ipoh
  
• i have a fucking amazing social support system that, on top of constant ( Read more... )

just before i got here, i told my dad that i was pretty sure it was going to fuck me up. not necessarily in a bad way, just -- i am both the most obstinate person i know and the most easily influenced, which makes for the worst, most unproductive kind of dichotomy. even when i think the other side of the argument is completely ridiculous, i get it ( Read more... )

note to self: people are always going to overlook you because they know they can count on you. your being away from home doesn't change that. if both of you are going to call at the same time (because you make her), they're always going to want to talk to her more. you're not the one who withholds calls for months at a time, so that's just how the ( Read more... )

i've never been a pretty girl.

i don't mean that in an oh my god i'm hideous and i should make like every television reality star example and get some work done way, or in that okay we all know i'm stunning but i'm going to pretend that i'm not because it's not polite when you say that about yourself sort of way; i'm just a regular girl, and even ( Read more... )

okay. deep breath. reliving this experience is going to be pretty painful, but i'm tempering it with shopping sprees and disneyland, so hopefully that will even the score out. early wednesday morning we headed out to the livermore outlet mall, prepped for a couple of hours of bargain hunting. how wrong we were. my aunt is the best kind of person to ( Read more... )

sometimes all it really takes to make a day wonderful is curling up with good fic in the fading sunlight, safe with the knowledge that the people you love are, if not in your inbox, then almost on their way home to you.

i just got waitlisted for rush university, which was basically my back up school and also the lowest-ranked school on the (on hindsight, too short) list of schools i applied for ( Read more... )

people can be so tricky.

i don't know what made me think i would ever be equipped to handle that. like i'm ever going to be the person who knows all the right things to say. i mean, if you know me at all, i think you know i'm not that girl. i'm nowhere close. i'd like to be, but i just--really suck at words. especially when it counts ( Read more... )

so this is what you meant ( Read more... )